A Conversion Story Series
Join me on an extraordinary journey as I delve into my personal experiences, beliefs, and reflections. Over the next month, I’ll be publishing an 8-part series that explores my transition from Mormonism to Satanism, my relationship with my family, my struggles and triumphs, and much more. Whether you’re curious, empathetic, or simply looking for a unique perspective, I invite you to follow along and engage in this exploration of faith, identity, and personal growth.
Part I: An Introduction to My Journey
Introduction to the Series
Welcome to a unique exploration that seeks to bridge two seemingly disparate worlds: Mormonism and Satanism. As someone who was raised in the Mormon faith and later embraced Satanism, I find myself in a position to offer a perspective that might be rare and enlightening.
This series is not about pitting one belief system against another or about proving one right or wrong. Instead, it’s about understanding, empathy, and personal growth. It’s about sharing my journey from the structured doctrines of Mormonism to the philosophies of Satanism, and how my unique experiences have shaped my understanding of both.
Brief Personal Background
I was born in Ogden, Utah, and raised in Davis and Weber counties, in a family deeply rooted in the Mormon faith. My childhood was filled with the usual Mormon expectations and rituals. Church every Sunday, family prayers, scripture readings, and a path towards the priesthood were all part of my upbringing. But even then, something felt off.
I remember a lesson about free will that struck a chord with me when I was just a child. The idea that God wanted me to do what I wanted to do was empowering. It was framed as God’s gift, and I felt a strong desire to take advantage of it. This concept of free will would later resonate with me in unexpected ways.
Growing up, I faced personal struggles and challenges that shaped my understanding of myself and the world around me. From early incidents that led to juvenile detention to misdiagnoses and medication trials, my youth was troubled. But these experiences, though painful, were part of a journey that led me to question, explore, and ultimately find a path that resonated with me.
My relationship with my family was complex, marked by tension, conflict, but also moments of understanding. By the time I was 17, I was living on my own, navigating the challenges of adulthood while still grappling with my faith and identity.
As that young adult, I found comfort and connection in the local music scene. It was there that I was introduced to Satanism, described to me as a “controlled form of selfishness.” This concept clicked, and something in me awakened. It was a turning point that set the stage for a deeper exploration of my beliefs and values.
My upbringing in Utah, with its rich Mormon heritage and cultural norms, provided a backdrop for a journey filled with discovery and growth that continues to this day. As I continue this series I will delve further into my transition from Mormonism to Satanism, exploring the challenges, triumphs, and insights along the way.
Statement on Respectful Dialogue and Understanding
I recognize that the topics of religion and personal belief can be deeply personal and sometimes divisive. I regularly find myself guilty of disrespect in this realm of discussion across social media. After all, I find that blasphemy can be a very healing behavior. However, this series is intended to be a respectful and thoughtful examination of my journey, and I invite readers to approach it with an open mind and heart. I pledge to you, reader, that this process has been and continues to be a learning experience.
I sincerely hope that by sharing my experiences and reflections, we can foster a greater understanding of both Mormonism and Satanism, and perhaps find a common ground in our shared humanity.